In-Dependence

51^st anniversary of our Independence

Cause for celebration, revelry and fireworks

In true Trini style we will get drunk, misbehave and get on wild

I smile

Thinking to myself how can we be an independent nation with dependent people

The irony of it all

Trini too small for this gimmie gimmie attitude

I don’t think this is what our nation’s leaders had in mind in 1962 when they lowered the Union Jack

We have a culture of wanting free ting

Not wanting to work for anything but still wanting

Not needing but wanting

We complain about the poor service at our hospitals, police stations and government ministries When it is we the people who work and manage these institutions

We complain about ourselves

The solution?

Fix you, fix me, fix we

Do the right thing, be accountable for our actions

Or lack of action

Our laid back attitude is to blame

Sometimes I wonder if our watchwords are still the same

Discipline Tolerance Production

We are the most in-disciplined people there are, we lack respect, courtesy and consideration

We see it every day, from driving on the shoulder, to no good mornings, to disregard for rules and for authority

Well tolerance has gone out the window, we are narrow minded, racist, prejudice and unaccepting of change

When a road has to fix we complain, and don’t talk for our politics its nigga people this and coolie people that and every tender and job selection is skewed by bias before it is even advertised

Production… Ha! I have to laugh yes!

When we all can’t wait for Friday, Frown at Monday’s and if a holiday falls on a Thursday we take the Friday off

But there are some things we are good at producing however

Murderers, child mothers and child fathers, cheats, liars, corrupt politicians and unruly people with no regard for the law or authority

I am proud to be a Trini!

Earth, Water and Fire

The nation has grounded to a slow halt
We have become contaminated

Our flame is dwindling

Red White and Black was supposed to represent courage, dedication, purity and equality

Ask yourself honestly

Does that represent who you are and what you believe in?

They say no man is an island

Sadly, we are an actual island with many men

A twin at that, fraternal so we are different

But let us as a people be resistant to mediocrity

Be persistent and more in touch with reality

As we strive to secure our longevity

Happy Independence my people, my sweet, sweet T&T  

On One Knee

Marry Me

On one knee

Marry Me

As far as the eye can see we are in love, infatuated bliss and happiness abounds

Though I have known you for less than a year, we love how the thought of marriage sounds

Yeah we argue and fight constantly, but our love makes up at night

We’re going to have a child together, it’s the right thing to do

We’ve been together for more than 6 years, all I know is you
I’m not getting any younger, my clock is ticking, Mr. man you sicking!

Yes let’s get married! 

Do people these days actually plan marriage?

And I don’t mean the wedding which the most thought and preparation probably goes into

Do couples sit and together really think out the kind of life they want to have with each other?

What the expectations will be?

What changes and compromises they will have to make?

For their sake, for their children’s sake

For God’s sake!

Do people even marry because of love anymore?

We all know people marry for different reasons, money, sex, power, fame

Marriage to many is a game and they are playing to win

Something there bothers me significantly

Somewhere along the line, marriage has lost its beauty

Matrimony is supposed to be a sacred, holy bond between wo and man cemented under the eyes of God

God help us!

Marriage today is like a gloried relationship

And ring on your finger is an accomplishment

Get a degree… check

Get a steady job… check

Buy a car…. check

Get an HDC house... check

Get married… next on my to do list

Marriage is on a sequential list of time bounded things to do in our lives

It has become a frivolous and vain achievement, lacking true substance and appreciation

What does marriage mean to you?

Today the word love has all but lost meaning

Love is now just about feelings

It has become shallow and depthless

A manipulative tool for corruption of the fool

Love is cool, love is popular, love is trendy

Love is Rihanna and Chris Brown

Love is a Bruno Mars slow song

Love is…

Lost in this world, individuals searching to find their soul

No one knows how to love and be loved anymore

In fact sometimes true love is not enough

Sometimes logic has to step in and a tough decision has to be made

Yes I love you and you love me but that’s the extent to how things could be, because

The cause and effect that is tied to our connection just isn’t conducive to marriage

Understand?

I think we undervalue ourselves way too much

A ring on the finger next to your pinky isn’t worth it

Marriage is supposed to be legally binding but people these days are finding the simplest of reasons to end that contract.

Contradictory to how it’s supposed to be, husband and wife as one, together, committed, for love, for honor, forever.

Never have I seen such disregard for something that’s supposed to be of such high esteem

Nevertheless this is the next step I will take

I’m ready, quiet conscience, this isn’t a mistake

Who has eyes to see let them watch

And who has ears to hear let them listen

I’m down on one knee

I love you

Will you marry me? 

My Absolution

I write

You wrong

I strong

You weak

When I talk you don’t speak

What I give, you take wholeheartedly and do not question

I have the answer to your every solution

Your life is an illusion here for me to give clarity

No amount of education can make you move smartly

Unless I give you the right-of-away  

And right away you realize that you need me

It is your meekness that feeds me

It consumes me gives me power and makes me greedy

If only you would stand up for yourself

Or if not for you, do it for someone you hold dear

No, you are gripped by the fear of your own impotence

Thought to think of yourself less than you are by the very being you seek strength from
Now isn't that a contradiction 

The fault lies in your own shortcomings

Because instead of seeking wisdom your heart yearns for other things

As does your body mind and soul

It gives you temporary happiness

Until the thought of your meaningless existence sinks in again

To no end

You do not seek the truth

Content in the comfort and confident in the construct of lies uttered by raised voices

Success, they have sold you on their superiority and the soundness of their choices

Never to whisper your own thoughts for fear that they may provoke thought

But that process has so been absent from your system that the thought alone might kill you

You wrong

I write

You weak

I strong

When you talk, I speak louder, confident in my utterances

What you give I don’t have to take because I am brave enough to make my own way

I have the answer to my every solution

My own resolve will bring with it my absolution 

Starving

I am starving 

Nourish me

Give me that sustenance that's been evading me

It's been too long

I'm down on my knees

I can try to survive but what good will it do?

I need satisfaction

I need to be fed

Especially with an appetite that is as insatiable as mine

Where is my oasis in this barren land?

My mouth waters

I can almost taste...

The memory is strong

It motivates me to carry on

But I am hungry

Belly grumbles

I have suffered for too long

Only you can release this feeling

You are my master chef

I'm in love with your home cooking

But it's been too long

I am starving...

Nourish me

A comprehensive guide to being her bf

Just feeling idle and told one of my best friends I'd make a comprehensive guide into being her bf lol. So here goes...

Rule #1- Don't touch her when she now wake up... She hates that, no hugging nothing!

Rule #2- Be prepared to watch some Walker Texas Ranger... A lot! (Spinning heel kick!)

Rule #3- Buy her Crix! Lot's and lots of Crix! She'll eat it with anything... For bonus points add in some garlic butter

Rule #4- When she says hold her hand... Run! I hope you never have to encounter this...But if you do... RUN!!!

Rule #5- Four letters... SALE! Bonus points if you can point her to the right direction! Can never have too much clothes, shoes, handbags and jewelry! 

Rule #6- Want to surprise her and excite her taste buds? Get her any of these in no particular order... Chow (preferably mango with cucumber), doubles (particularly on a Sunday morning), homemade wantons, shrimp, Chinese, KFC (the Holy food), tamarind balls, Maggi soup, ice cream cones.

Rule #7- Nails! Nails! Nails! Anything to do with it... She's fascinated by it... Try cool nail-polish, add ons and accessories. 

Rule #8- Let her win at Wii...Especially Just Dance (Party rockers in the house tonight) :P 

Rule #9- Don't touch her when she has her P, definitely don't try to rub her belly! 

Rule #10- Don't ever get her white girl wasted...It's not a pretty sight *shutters at the dance moves* 

Rule #11- Strawberry Daiquiris...Blue Martini... Rum and Coke... any of these will do... 

Rule #12- Don't touch her when she now bathe or when she's sleepy...

Rule #13- Wanna spend QT? 8pm-9pm... Wheel of Fortune and Jeopardy... Again let her win... She's very competitive..

Rule #14- Carnival time... Get her the latest Soca CD mix for her to play while driving... And periodically the latest music on CD on a whole too...

Rule #15- Friends lime... Don't ever be on her Taboo or Guesstures team... She sucks! But again let her win... 

Rule #16- For you own sake... Be up to the times with Reality television because you're gonna hear a lot about it... A lot!!! *Kim Kardashian ugly cry face* 

Rule #17- I hope you like stale jokes... If Cinderella is the fairest of them all... Then she is the stalest of them all... There gonna be corny and they're gonna come at you fast! 

Rule #18- If you're a man with pride... Don't play any word games with her... You will surely lose! 

Rule #19- Never ask her to wake you up in the morning! Because she does a great job of it and that's annoying! *PING PING PING*

Rule #20- Purple!!! She loves Purple!!! And blue too...

Bonus Rule- Above all else treat her with the kindness, care, respect and love she deserves because she's a special and amazing woman and deserves nothing less...

#FriendZone

How do I tell her?
How do I express my feelings?
I don't want to complicate things
Things are already so complicated as they are now
We're just friends
And good friends at that
When she's been hurt, I was there, I felt her pain
I comforted her, advised her, helped cheer her up

But my care and love for her extends deeper than friendship
I know it is because for a while she's been all that's on my mind
I hold myself back from messaging her to ask her what she's doing
I get jealous when she sees other guys
I dream about her lips, the feeling of a first kiss
Sigh who am I kidding
My thoughts are crazy
I shouldn't cross the line
She probably most likely doesn't even see me that way

But we've been good friends since we met
Every secret she's told me I kept
She trusts me, I trust her
I admire her
Intelligent and beautiful
Strong and womanly
I love her creativity
Would do anything to make her happy, to help her grow, to help her succeed
But we're just friends
And we will never be together....

What is a Mother?

Mother…

She is my friend, my best friend, I can confide in her with anything

She is my secret keeper and my advisor

From relationships, to school, what to wear, what not to wear, my career, dreams and goals

She guides me with her wisdom every step of the way

She is involved in my life as she should be because…

Ma…

She is my support system

She believes in me when no one else does

She encourages me, motivates me and drives me to give my best

A great listener, sometimes I just need someone to listen and she is always there

She is committed to me while nurturing me all the while, forever my…

Mom…

My cheerleader when I succeed

She gleams with pride with everything I accomplish

When I fail or hurt, on her shoulders I lean on

Responsive when I need her

She is there for me, to comfort me, my one and only…

Mummy…

She puts up with me, with my antics, miserableness, insecurities and faults

When I don’t listen to her advice and things turn out just as she said it would she doesn’t even say “I told you so.”

She is patient and understanding with me, allows me to grow on my own and make my own mistakes to learn from

She is accepting of who I am, and not only that…

Moms…

She is strong!

Nothing and no one can match her strength!

She’s like the Incredible Hulk but cooler

A rock, my rock, my fortress of solitude  

How she does it all I do not know, but I’m glad she is able to, she is my…

Mama…

She proves time and time again how much she cares for me

It amazes me actually how one human being could be so kind, so giving and so unselfish

She’s sacrificed so much for me throughout the years

A testament of true love

An unbreakable, unmistakable love

A mother’s love

Mother, Ma, Mom, Mummy, Ma, Mama… It's not about what you call her... It's about what she means to you

For me?

The world